Saturday, October 29, 2011
At a kind of crossroads
I don't have much new and exciting to tell you all. Glenn's treatment Thursday went normally, although the second chemo was held again to let his bone marrow get stronger. So far he isn't retaining much fluid as a result of the steroids. :-) We also saw his nephrologist the same day. That Dr.continues to talk more about dialysis and asking Glenn how he's feeling about it. So I asked the Dr. if he has a time line when he thinks dialysis will be necessary. He said anywhere from 3 months to 6 months to a year, depending how things go with Glenn's kidney function. Right now it is still getting worse. I'm really impressed with how Glenn is getting more and more adjusted to the idea of it, resigning himself to it, actually, but it's not such a terrible thing to him as it was at first. He also is getting more accustomed to being stuck with needles. Those two things are really minor miracles. He's come a long way in those areas. As far as how he actually feels, he is tired a lot still, of course, continues to use the electric carts at the stores, takes a few naps during the day, still feeling a little drugged up and a little unstable on his feet. But he says he really has no complaints other than those minor things. We count the weeks and days until we go to G'ville to see his hemo/oncologist. Wondering what will be changed in that visit, if the treatment will be stopped, stay the same, or be increased, wondering if he will have a bone marrow biopsy, and if we can get little more specific idea of how and where this is going. We go there in two and half weeks. Another reason for anticipating that Dr. visit is that we think we can make a decision from that visit as to where we should move. Leaving this place where we live now is kind of hard for me, as you might know. I have loved living here. I was encouraged the other day when I looked up how Abram took it when God told him to "leave your country, your people and your father's household and go to the land I will show you............... So Abram left, as the Lord had told him......". It had to be reeaaalllyyy hard for him to pick up and move from the place that he was happy and comfortable in to an unknown place. But there is no hint of him dragging his feet. He just did it. Glenn and I have talked about where all we have lived during the 31 years of our marriage. We have never picked out just what we wanted and then gone to find it. We have always had to rely on what God put in front of us, and it has ALWAYS worked out well. We have lived in homes we never would have chosen but were from totally adequate to very nice.Where we are now, all of our kids and our granddaughter and sisters live in town, as well as our friends at church and in our neighborhood who have gone on this journey with us. And that's what we would be leaving if we move to G'ville. But if that's what's best then we will go. As the song goes, this world is not our home, we're just passing through. Thank you all so much for coming with us, encouraging us along the way, and continuing to support us by your prayers to God for our strength and direction. You hold us up, we want you all to know that.